Friday, April 29
Work work work...
Yesterday was a terribly busy, hectic and a day where I was getting the harshness of the "hyena" in my place of heavy duty.
There was so much of faxing, drafting, proof reading and organising of so many "alien" documents. To top that, information or knowledge on them was totally dutch to me and I was practically begging for some sort of divine help that could transfer the relevant information - sort like in a matrix way, where I get plugged in and simply download the information.
Goodness, my lunch was juice and for once I never knew that the time I left was way over my work hours and here I was thinking I was still amidst it. When I was leaving office, I felt I was leaving a cemetary, "lights switched off, white pale papers all over and lastly not a soul in site except for the whirring sound of the aircondition".
I was so hungry and met my mum halfway because she went to Little India to get flowers to put for the deities today. Had a quick paper dosai and went back home. Though I was home, I could not get a wink of sleep, knowing the fact that my fiance was still not back from work.
I only slept a few winks at abt 2:30am odd, hoping to receive an sms or some sort of reassuring info that he was okie and stuff. My tired mind led me to slumberland and I awoke at 545am. Still no sms from him. I rang him up and that poor sweetheart of mine with his tired voice only made it home at about 3 plus am. Not wanting to deprive him of a milisecond of sleep, I hung up abruptly. However thereafter, I didn't get any sleep. Got up, showered and got ready for work and now I'm in office for round 2 of "scoldings, belittling, faxing, and whatevers".
Hey, just heard, I'm the only legal assistant now in my department. The rest are on leave and mc! Great!! Fantastic!! That leaves tons of "happy bonding" with my superior...God help me!!!
Cheers,
Tunitha
|9:12:00 am|
Wednesday, April 27
First and foremost, THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH for all your wonderful wishes. I really appreciate your love and care...
So, to continue where I left of from yesterday's programme, I went to temple after work, did a fast one as I was meeting my darling. Gosh, I was so happy he was meeting me, too thrilled actually. Reason was because his job scope needs him to be entertaining the political world and some political personel have arrived in Singapore, thus, he being in the position of their aid, was terribly tied up and I was afraid I wasn't able to meet him at all on my special day.
We met and went on to have a quiet session of a romantic "SPLITZZA" at Pizza Hut. Well, the meal wasn't too important to me, what was, was actually, he made it to meet me. A toast to you on that darling. Once the dinner was over, we went back home.
I know it wasn't much of a birthday with gifts, surprises, balloons, cards or anything in particular, but hey, only the birthday person would know what he/she actually would want for their birthdays. And I certainly got what I wanted for mine.
Thats about all that happened yesterday. Till I pen again, its ta ta from the girl in white and Anitha, my sweetest sister, thanks again for helping me give my blog a make-over... People watch out for it, its simple yes, but very serene.
I took this in the office, tried to look shy, hope I made it...sheesh!!!
Cheers,
Tunitha
|8:47:00 am|
Tuesday, April 26
wat date and time is it now?---* 26 April 05, 3:41pm
who's at home wif ya now?---* Erm, I'm at wrk with mum :p
Did u go out recently?---* Nah, not been out in awhile
Do u prefer durian or guava?---* both also can, depends on my mood
Wat time did u wake up today?---* 645am
Did u go anywhere today?---* Well, I'm at wrk and will be goin temple later...
Why did u go there?---* To work!
How old are u now?---* 25! Turned today :p
Are u mature or immature?---* Depends, its good to be both at times :P
Wat do u call ur mother?---* Ma
Are u n ur mum in gd condition?---* well, off and on...
Are u de only boy/girl in ur family?---* nah, one younger sista
Do u wanna get married?---* DUH!
Wif who?---* Nishan Pillai
If u were to marry a celebrity.who wld u marry?---* Gd quest! Nah, no one I guess. I'd rather be wiv my snuggle woggles...
When are u going to shop?---* Long time more!
Where do u think ur frens are?---* Ard I guess..
When was de last time u tok to ur best frens?---* Erm, yesterday..to shanti..
Wat do u wan for ur birthday?---* Can I leave this blank?
Any piercing on u?---* ears
Would u get a tatoo?---* I mite, a small one!
How bout a belly pierce?---* not really..
Do u haf any homeworks?---* nah, perhaps once start my classes*
MSN or yahoo?---* MSN
Are u listening to any songs now?---* Nope....at wrk n dis place believes in only photocopier sounds
Do u believe in miracles?---* Yes!!! It happened on 10th Dec 2003 at 725pm at 'razers edge'!
Where do u wanna go now?---* Somewhere quiet and peaceful with my loved one...
Ever been to bangladesh?---* Nah!
How are you feeling now?---* Normal...
Cheers,
Tunitha
|3:39:00 pm|
Yeah, I'm celebrating my birthday today. Gosh I feel so old. Well, I'm just glad I'm younger than some whose way older.
My cousin sis, actually wrote in to radio giving my name to be called up by the DJ and to be wished! Sheesh! Talk about a pleasant surprise!! Real pleasant. Well, received some cosmetic products and a shawl from 2 colleagues. Thats about it at this moment.. will update soon..
Cheers,
Tunitha
|2:52:00 pm|
Friday, April 22
M~I~S~S~I~N~G Y~O~U
My heart aches within from missing you,
My lips long for the feel of kissing you,
Right now all I need is to gently touch your skin,
To look into your eyes and see deep within,
Just one warm embrace,
Just to look upon your face,
Just one little touch,
From the one I love so much,
If I could gaze upon your smile,
For just a little while,
To know that you miss me too,
As I'm thinking of you,
To hear the sound of you breathe,
Knowing you'll never leave,
To see you walk up to me,
Then embrace you tenderly,
To just be with the one who's sent my heart reeling,
And brought about this downpour of emotion and feeling,
I sit here alone in my office tonight,
And pray that somehow this all turns out right,
I've never been one to do more taking than giving,
I'm not well off but I work hard for a living,
I've told you many thoughts that weren't borrowed or bought,
And in lifetime, who would have thought,
That I have found someone who was just meant for me,
I can't explain the magic or why this should be,
But there is one thing that I know for certain,
That this just ain't over till one of us draws the final curtain,
For I've seen an angel and I want you to know,
If it's my choice to make, I'll never let you go,
Don't know what life holds, maybe there's no reason or rhyme,
To think you may be mine in a matter of time,
And though I cannot touch you and we are now apart,
My Love, you do dwell, so deep within my heart.
And forever will it be true,
For I love you for being you...
Cheers,
Tunitha
|6:20:00 pm|
Tuesday, April 19
I would like to share this below. Read it when I was 9 yrs old. I still remember how it deeply affected me. Somehow from there, my perception at life actually changed... Tell me what you think of it...
Footprints
One night a man had a dream.He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonged to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it.
"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.
The LORD replied, "My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."
~Mary Stevenson Parker~
Cheers,
Tunitha
|8:19:00 am|
Monday, April 18
Give it up for Mondays......Yeee!
Well, I won't come to today yet. Gonna update on what had happened over the weekend..
My fiance fianally got a Dog for himself. Its similar to the one he had before, only that this new cutie is alittle reserved and well "sorry" looking. Her name's Snowy..
So, we collected her from the east and settled her at his place...She was obviously prancing and confused (can't blame her, she had owners who took care of her for 4 years).
Thus, Satuday & Sunday went off commiting to the Dog.
Now back to Monday, well, hate it. Feel as though I've been deprived of sleep. Why cant we work on weekends longer hours and have the weekdays to rest :p. Okie, thats too much I agree, but at least make the working hours later like perhaps starting work at 10am. Now that isn't too much to ask is it?! It is!!? Sighh.
Anyways, I'm officially declaring that I'm gonna go on a fruits/fruit juice diet for lunch. Except on Sundays. Why? Gimme a break for heaven's sake!! Sheesh.
By the way, u GUYS gotta check this out! Its freaking cool! Those who have seen it. what the heck, see it again!!!
Cheers,
Tunitha
|12:46:00 pm|
Thursday, April 14
Wishing all indians celebrating today a very Happy New Year.
Well, I'll explain abit on today's value, so that the non-celebraters may understand better...
The month of Chitthirai (Mid April - Mid May) has arrived and with it the Tamil New Year's Day; April 14th, an occasion for celebration for Tamilians all over the world. Greetings of 'Puthandu Vazthukal', (Happy New Year), are exchanged with fervour on this day.
The day starts with viewing the 'kanni' (the auspicious sight) at dawn, in the expectation that beginning the New Year by looking at auspicious or favourable things will bring good fortune throughout the year. The auspicious things include, gold and silver jewellery, betel leaves, nuts, fruits and vegetables, flowers, raw rice and coconuts. This is followed by the ritual bath and a visit to the temple to pray for a prosperous and happy New Year. (Yeah, I did all these, except for the part of going to temple, instead, had to come to work :p)
April 14th also happens to be the Bengali New Year Day, Naba Barsha, which begins with the 'Prabhat Pheries' (an early morning procession) with songs and dances welcoming the New Year.
In Kerala 'Vishu' is celebrated by Malayalees commemorating the beginning of the astronomical New Year in the Malayalam Calendar. (Now this is what I celebrate....Malayalee ma?!.. Oh, and by the way, I would at this point like to clear something, we are known as Malayalees, not Malayalam. Malayalam is the language we speak. Its like Europeans speaking English...get it? Okie.)
Yeah, so I guess I wrapped up most of it. Tonight at my aunt's place there's gonna be lottsa delicious food. Sigh, and I'm gonna feel sooooooo guilty after eating it...
Cheers,
Tunitha
|8:36:00 am|
Wednesday, April 13
Oooh..I like this one!!!
Man: Hey baby, what's your sign?
Woman: Do not enter.
Man: How do you like your eggs in the morning?
Woman: Unfertilized
Man: Your body is like a temple.
Woman: Sorry, there are no services today.
Man: I would go to the end of the world for you.
Woman: But would you stay there?
Man: If I could see you naked, I'd die happy.
Woman: If I saw you naked, I'd probably die laughing.
Man: Haven't I seen you someplace before?
Woman: Yes, that's why I don't go there anymore.
Man: Is this seat empty?
Woman: Yes, and this one will be if you sit down.
Man: Your place or mine?
Woman: Both. You go to yours, and I'll go to mine.
Man: So, what do you do for a living?
Woman: I'm a female impersonator.
Cheers,
Tunitha
|12:52:00 pm|
Tuesday, April 12
I can't deny....
In reality, everyone is good in bed.
Close eyes.
Shutdown brain.
Pause as necessary.
Restart brain.
Open eyes.
What's there to not be good at?
Bed is the one place where laziness is rewarded.
- John Dobbin
Cheers,
Tunitha
|3:34:00 pm|
Monday, April 11
This entire post is being dedicated to my lovable Shanti!
You've been there for me through the good times and bad
I know I can count on you to be there when I'm sad
Life without you just wouldn't be right
I wouldn't be able to get through each day and night
When I've had a bad day
I know that you're only a call away
When life takes that crazy turn
You are always there to help me learn
We've had so many good times together
I know we'll be best friends forever
No matter where we are
I know we'll never be too far
You're my idol, my sister, my friend
We'll be together till the end
Even when we're old and gray
You'll be here still, to help me get on my way
Well, I knew this piece of freaking exaggerated crap for coming to 6 years and counting.... She's actually a CELEBRITY! Central channel!
I never had an elder sister, but this girl, though she's younger in age than me(god i feel so old!!), she's freaking possesive over me!
Love you sooooooo much ma! (Sheeesh...i feeel sooooo lesbian now...hehe)
But really, this is the only girl who knows everything about me, my crap and my non-crap!
By the way, APRIL 12 Dinner!!! There, I made it public so you can't escape this time round! Muahahahahaha!
Cheers,
Tunitha
|8:14:00 am|
Thursday, April 7
Yeah, I'm back on track, no more blues....
So I'm dedicating this song to myself and to all out there....
Its FRANK SINATRA....
That's Life!
That's life (that's life), that's what all the people say
You're ridin' high in April, shot down in May
But I know I'm gonna change that tune
When I'm back on top, back on top in June
I said that's life (that's life), and as funny as it may seem
Some people get their kicks stompin' on a dream
But I don't let it, let it get me down'cause this fine old world, it keeps spinnin' around
I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate, a poet, a pawn and a king
I've been up and down and over and out and I know one thing
Each time I find myself flat on my face
I pick myself up and get back in the race
That's life (that's life), I tell you I can't deny it
I thought of quitting, baby, but my heart just ain't gonna buy it
And if I didn't think it was worth one single try
I'd jump right on a big bird and then I'd fly
I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate, a poet, a pawn and a king
I've been up and down and over and out and I know one thing
Each time I find myself layin' flat on my face
I just pick myself up and get back in the race
That's life (that's life), that's life and I can't deny it
Many times I thought of cuttin' out but my heart won't buy it
But if there's nothin' shakin' come this here July
I'm gonna roll myself up in a big ball a-and die
My, my!
Well, the last part may seem alittle pessimistic....hehe, but there's a whole lot of inspiration going on in here....
Cheers,
Tunitha
|1:40:00 pm|
Monday, April 4
You know, sometimes life feels really and extremely unfair. Things that you believed true and real, can be deceiving at times.
I always felt everyone deserves a second chance at something, however, in my case, I fail to see it. My weakness would be bottling everything up and then ending up in depression. Well, guess its in the genes, my dad.
Trust is defined and looked upon as very deep and involved. It holds a very deep impact in everyone. They say once a trust is broken, it takes time to heal. To me, perhaps I may have to wait a lifetime to get my trust gained back. It pains me to see people who are extremely close to me, get suspicious and react in a way that to me, doesn't seem fair. What did I do? Was there something major in life I did? Everyone makes mistakes goddammit! Its divine to forgive. Mine? Well......time will tell.
Sometimes I wished the earth just swallowed me up. Sometimes I feel, my whole birthstar is wrong and sometimes I think someone up there just doesn't like me.
Well, this post of mine seems to be of depression, upset, call it whatever, but I felt like writing and I did.
To all out there. Its okie to make mistakes unknowingly and seek forgiveness. Just make sure, you're really forgiven and given a chance.
Cheers,
Tunitha
|5:56:00 pm|
Cheers,
Tunitha
|9:03:00 am|
Sunday, April 3
Fear of being ridiculed
Certainly if you fail in front of other people, there is the possibility of being ridiculed. This is probably the greatest fear people have. It can cause you to lose confidence and esteem, as well as to be looked upon as not valuable or desirable, no important and certainly not powerful.
There are many cases where people hesitate from doing something they want to do, because they fear of consequences of failure or some impending disaster.
A young man may not ask a girl out for a date, because he fears rejection.
A manager may avoid giving a presentation at work, because she is afraid of speaking to a group. She fears the possibility of looking foolish and being ridiculed by her peers.
Such fears are great and very real to the person.
So guys,
There are many others suffering from this. Well, I admit, I'm one myself.
The point is, unless we be brave and face and accept whatever remarks are made, I'm sure we won't feel so upset. I know its easy to say, well, I don't deny it myself, for I find myself hard to accept it and take it as a remark.
Problem being, some of us do fall on the sensitive levels. But, if we are to move on in this world, sensitivity is no way an excuse.
I'm trying to change and accept, hope you will to.
Cheers,
Tunitha
|7:21:00 pm|
Saturday, April 2
Simply love the words.
Micheal Jackson's >>> Give In To Me
She Always Takes It With A Heart Of Stone
'Cause All She Does Is Throw It Back To Me
I've Spend A Lifetime Looking For Someone
Don't Try To Understand Me
Just Simply Do The Things I Say
Love Is A Feeling
Give It When I Want It
'Cause I'm On Fire
Quench My Desire
Give It When I Want It
Talk To Me Woman
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
[ The part in red is my fav of it all...simply oooomph! ]
You Always Knew Just How To Make Me Cry
And Never Did I Ask You Questions Why
It Seems You Get Your Kicks From Hurting Me
Don't Try To Understand Me
Because Your Words Just Aren't Enough
Love Is A Feeling
Quench My Desire
Give It When I Want It
Takin' Me Higher
Love Is A Woman
I Don't Wanna Hear It
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
You And Your Friends Were Laughing At Me In Town
But It's Okay... And It's Okay...
You Wont Be Laughing Girl
When I'm Not Around
I'll Be Okay.... And I'll, I'll Not Find
Gotta, The Peace Of Mind No
Don't Try To Tell Me Because Your Words Just Aren't Enough
Love Is A Feeling
Quench My Desire
Give It When I Want It
Takin' Me Higher
Talk To Me Woman
Love Is A Feeling
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
Love Is The Feeling
I Don't Wanna Hear It
Quench My Desire
Takin' Me Higher
Tell It To The Preacher
Satisfy The Feeling
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
I Don't WannaI Don't WannaI Don't Wanna Hear It
Give It To The Fire
Talk To Me Woman
Quench My Desire
I Don't Like A Lady
Talk To Me Baby
Give In To Me
Give In To The Fire
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
Love Is A Woman
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
'Cause I'm On Fire
Talk To Me Woman
Quench My Desire
Give It To The Feeling
Cheers,
Tunitha
|10:03:00 am|
Friday, April 1
HERO QUALITIES WE ADMIRE:
Achievement - extraordinary results, from hard work
Compassion - sympathy with a desire to alleviate suffering and remove its cause, more than empathy, like altruism
Courage - taking an unpopular position, standing up for principle, persevering, forging accomplishment out of adversity
Discipline - proper conduct or action, the training effect of experienceIntegrity - sound character, honesty, virtue, honor, sincerity
Intuition - direct perception of truth, keen insight, like decision-makingLeadership - causing good things to happen, being earnest
Responsibility - reliable, dependable, accountable
Self-expression - individualism and originality
Teamwork - cooperative effort, common cause
HERO SYNONYMS TO THINK ABOUT:
Role model - plainer than hero, more human, the moral component referred to by Oxford English Dictionary as "greatness of soul"
Mentor - teacher, advisor, wise and trusted for one's care and education
Unsung/Everyday/Local Hero - a decent person who sacrifices or tries to make a positive difference in his or her community. More inclusive and democratic than just hero.
Leader - frequently linked but too broad: Hitler was a leader.
Legend, icon, idol - celebrity and fame, but not heroic per se.
Warrior - synonymous for most of human history, but not any more.
The world's made up of individuals who don't want to be heroes.-
Brian Moore (b. 1921), Irish novelist.
So do you want to be a hero? Or do u have a hero?
My hero "who's really what the facts say" is my fiance. Not kidding.
Cheers,
Tunitha
|1:13:00 pm|
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