Tuesday, September 27
I really don't know whats up with me, but I really feel down, not for any reason.. feeling very depressed. Can't blog much, let me cross over this stage and I'll start blogging.
|9:50:00 pm|
Sunday, September 18
I feel like bitching....
Been feeling quite lost lately. I am not sure why as well. I don't seem to be having the mood to do anything. Feels more like I just want to be preoccupied but, the bottom line is, I don't know what to occupy myself with. I guess the more obvious one would be studies and visiting the library.
Quite troublesome and irritating when you come to a point where you're just totally lost. Its not as if I'm bothered about somthing, or feeling upset, well, come to think of it, feeling upset would be a norm to me, because I'm denigrated to be a "very sensitive" person. Sometimes I really wonder if I was that sensitive. Maybe I should not give a damn about what's happening? Maybe I should just satisfy my needs selfishly? Maybe, just maybe....
Another thing is have you guys ever looked forward to something so much and practically kept thinking about it over and over again and nothing else seems to be of existence to you? And that thing never happened or took place? Freakingly shocking and quite upsetting ain't it???
I had a few occasions like that happening to me for the past few months. I wonder perhaps if its my high expectations or whether if I deserve to even have it. Somethings in life, one just can't expect much I guess. But, one thing's for sure, I've been learning very painful valuable lessons. Life isn't just being sweet and expecting sweetness in return. The world's a selfish warground and everyone's just saving their own asses and not bothering to save another's. The joke is, "Which imbecile came up with World Peace?" It should be "World Be Selfish"!
I've learnt, that to live in this world, I've got to be extremely diplomatic about almost everything and just be blunt. Contradicting? Well, thats the way I've seen it happen. People putting up false fronts in the fronts of their conversationists and showing their true colours behind their backs. Living in this world isn't easy especially when you know for yourself you've got an "outstanding" character. Its not easy to get people trusting you when you've done mistakes in your life, but the famous phrase of "everyone deserves a second chance" doesn't exist one bit and that I cant vouch for sure. I've learned that the very hard way. If you want to adapt to that phrase, well, I've learnt to use it on myself only.
"Things change. People change." I used to take this as my guide, but somehow, as time flies, I'm begining to loathe it pretty bad and think I rather be a bitch to myself than being my bestfriend and lead life with an attitude. I was born alone and will die alone anyway!
Cheers,
Tunitha
|9:20:00 pm|
Friday, September 9
There's somthing I'm looking forward too... Too many emotions to describe...but hey, I'm so so so happy...The lyrics mean every word.....
Like a movie scene
In the sweetest dreams
Have pictured us together
Now to feel your lips
On my fingertips
I have to say is even better
Then I ever thought it could possibly be
It's perfect, it's passion, it's setting me free
From all of my sadness
The tears that I've cried
I have spent all of my life
Waiting for tonight, oh
When you would be here in my arms
Waiting for tonight, oh
I've dreamed of this love for so long
Waiting for tonight
Tender words you say
Take my breath away
Love me now, leave me never
Found a sacred place
Lost in your embrace
I want to stay in this forever
I think of the days when the sun used to set
On my empty heart, all alone in my bed
Tossing and turning
Emotions were strong
I knew I had to hold on
Waiting for tonight, oh
When you would be here in my arms
Waiting for tonight, oh
I've dreamed of this love for so long
Waiting for tonight
Gone are the days when the sun used to set
On my empty heart all alone in my bed
Tossing and turning
Emotions were strong
I knew I had to hold on
Waiting for tonight, oh
When you would be here in my arms
Waiting for tonight, oh
I've dreamed of this love for so long
Waiting for tonight
Cheers,
Tunitha
p.s : Gosh I missed You so so bad!!!
|10:20:00 am|
Tuesday, September 6
Been awhile since I've posted something. I've been so busy with work(I know, what else is new)that I hardly had time to post anything. I'm yet to post the Girls' Night Out as well. All I can say is that it's on the way.
I'm gonna post somthing out of the ordinary. Something original, something sweet and something that I really would do from the bottom of my heart....
The Top 10 things I would do for my Lover...
The 10th : I would get his favourite World Cup Football Jerseys and surprise him with an original autograph of his favorite player.
The 9th : I would tape his favourite programmes that he would have genuinely missed and put it on for him on a sunday afternoon for him to watch away.
The 8th : I would surprise him with different flowers, love notes and smses everyday to let him know I'm there for him always and forever loving him wholely.
The 7th : I would cook his favourite dishes every night to cheer him up from a long day at work.
The 6th : I would get his portrait done up in a jigsaw puzzel and spend time putting the pieces altogether and attaching a "I LOVE U" card together with it to show my love.
The 5th : I would wait for him to return home after a hard's day's work, soak his feet and give him a good feet massage, calming his nerves down and making sure he's fully relaxed and prepared for the next working day.
The 4th : I would wait for him after work under his office and bring him out to a posh restaurant that he's been waiting to try for very long.
The 3rd : I would take him to the beach, write out our names over the sand in kerosene and light it up for the skies to see.
The 2nd : I would help him acheive his dreams and goals and share all his joys and sorrows with him till death do us part.
The 1st : I would make him realise that it is I who am the lucky one to have gotten such a wonderful soul in my life and to be sharing it with him.
Cheers,
Tunitha
|10:25:00 pm|
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